F*CK NORMAL

First of all, let’s just put it out there, I am not a professional writer by any means. I have no idea if anyone will ever read this, and if you are reading it, where you are reading it from! My name is Nix and I am a 40yo woman who, after years of professional therapy, hours of personal contemplation and soo many books read have decided to finally gather all of my writings into one place. One electronic version to contain the many ‘AH HAH’ moments, and infrequent deep understandings of the basic shit in life! While I do this, I figured, I’d do it publicly, bc… I guess I’m a masochist <insert shoulder shrugging emoji>

I’m just a normal 40-ish yo American woman. I grew up in the 80’s and 90’s (or as my children like to refer to it: the 1900’s *assholes*) I became an adult too early, succeeded in my 20’s, failed in my 30’s and am finally learning, now that my life is half over (Stop*I know my life is not near over… I say this bc I do not want to live past 83. I think this is a perfectly acceptable age to die, so I say… half over) at 40’s. I say ‘finally learning’ so broadly, bc I truly believe I am finally healed enough to start retaining the information I’ve been given over the past decade. Since I began seeking the very common question: What is the purpose of life?

I have NO IDEA of what purpose I’ve been spared, or why I am one of the lucky ones unable to end my life, but I am beginning to understand that I have the ability to act upon my own personal agency, and am not dependent upon any environment I am in, nor do I have to live reacting to other’s drama. After all the research, I’ve started seeing some fruition. It relates to the overwhelming amounts of trauma I’ve endured over the previous half of my life. I want to share these with the world! I have no idea what this blog will come to. I have no idea if I’ll continue after this first , but if it does… I want my children and all my others to know some of these little gems of wisdom I’ve gathered. Not bc I’ve learned them… but so you can learn these little lessons before they affect your life and you can start living before half your life is over. < insert kiss-lip emoji here>

Passionately,

Nix 🙂